So...Life's been...I think that is an adequate statement for the time being. Life is just been. Work is hectic and sometimes I find myself day dreaming about playing horrible dirty tricks on some of my coworkers. I saw a thing on tumblr the other day. It said "Just to have fun, I will replace the air freshner in the bathroom with an air horn and wait for the screams." I really did consider that. But...I am pretty sure it wouldn't get the ones that deserve it and I'd give someone a heart attack. Then...I would feel really bad. Stupid conscience...gets in the way sometimes lol.
Then...there is the raging hormonal demon from the lowest depths of hell that is my daughter. No...really, she isn't THAT bad...she's probably from one of the upper levels of hell lol. Pre-teen and hormonal, it's never a great combination. Throw that on top of my own PMS, it could be dangerous in my house at times. I love the kid, she's the best thing in my life. But I will just say there are moments when I look at her and think "This is exactly how child abuse happens." But! She is still breathing, is fed on time and has been getting plenty of sunlight so I would say I am doing pretty good. I am just ready for school to start back up though. She's driving me nuts lol.
Then...there is the dating/love life/search for a Daddy to call my own. Still pretty non-existent. Not for lack of trying mind you. I have tried looking. Honestly...I have come across a lot of...well...for lack of a better term, TRASH. The whole "For every 20 or 30 Doms you come across, only 1 will be worth a damn" thing, it is absolutely correct. You have these guys out there shouting their status from the roof tops, those are pretty easy to spot. But there are these soft spoken, quiet ones. I will refer to them as Gollums because I've come to see they are no better than little hobbit like creatures that have spent way too much time in a cave, worshiping their "Precious" (aka penis and fantasies) to be of much use to anyone else. They are sneaky (and yes, I totally typed sneaksy and had to edit it...I'm a nerd, I know) and they come in all soft, gentle and very good with words. They give the pretense that they just want to be friends. Then, after a while...they tell you they really like you. You ignore it at first, but they seem to be there...a lot. They come off as caring, will even call you great things like "Beautiful". You start to like them and even decide what the hell and tell them how you feel and BLAM! Brick wall. No warning, no breaks, no nothing. Yea, I met one like that...we don't talk so much anymore. It's more like he texts when he has nothing better to do, I answer when I feel like it and it's generally short. But, just another reason you really need to be cautious. And a perfect example of people who decide they like kink, want rough sex but have NO clue what a dom is, what a sub is or what the D/s lifestyle is about. Don't go making profiles on places like Fetlife or Collar Me or any of the other alternative lifestyle websites unless you've at least learned to read. Go to back to Match or Cupid.com and leave the adults alone. This "buttholes who call themselves Doms" seem to be a reoccurring theme.
Sounds mean I am sure, but I just have found...I'm me, I will be honest...if you do not like it, then move on to the next bus stop...this is NOT your corner. It's mine and I'm working it thanks. But, I am ok really. I am doing well on my own. Despite work and the kiddo driving me...I am staying upright. Yea...I still have moments when really all I want to do is sit in a corner and pout because of one of those stumbling blocks. But, I got the big girl panties on right now...so I am all good *cheeky grin* There's a Daddy out there for me and one day I'll find him.For now...I'm enjoying the space of just being myself without supervision. That could be a little dangerous hehehe...
